A Depressing Morning

Today started as a depressingly lazy Sunday. I woke with the feeling that I’m not doing anything with my life (which really can put a damper on one’s mood).

The problem is I don’t see anything that’s wrong with me at the current time. Sure, the lack of a job is pretty disheartening, but it’s not the end of the world. I think my biggest problem is I’m still sad about it being five months since I’ve seen my boyfriend. Long-distance relationships suck.

College is a really big bummer, too. Financial aid gave me the short end of the stick by conveniently losing one of the forms I had to submit back in the fall and never telling me about it. Plus, the only reason why I’m staying in school right now is to defer the loans from Purdue.

Everyone always asks me what I want to do with my life, and the same response I give every single time is that I want to be a flight instructor. Then they proceed to ask what college degree I need in order to achieve that goal. After I’m done laughing, I loudly exclaim “none!” That’s what ticks me off about the whole thing – I’m spending money to save money.

I would love nothing more than to take all the money spent on college tuition and textbooks, and put it toward my IFR rating. Flying used to be my way of leaving the world behind and pretended nothing existed except fuel gauges and landing strips. Now it seems like the world is doing everything it can to keep my feet firmly planted on the ground. And that sucks.

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Sunday nights… I hate them so.

There’s something about Sunday nights… I just hate them.  Not the fact that school follows the next day, just the fact that it’s Sunday night.

For some reason, Sunday night makes me think of all the things in my life that make me depressed and lonely.  It’s the one night of the week when I’ll sit here in front of my desk, stare at the computer screen, and get all sappy-like.  I don’t know why it has to happen on Sunday night, but it does… and I hate it.

I think it’s the lonely part that gets me.  Well, it’s not really being “lonely”… it’s more like missing something.   What that “something” might be, I haven’t the faintest of ideas.  But whatever it is, I’m missing it.  And for some reason, Sunday night seems to remind me about it.

So that’s my rant about Sunday night.  Not very exciting, I know… but at least I’m a bit tired now.  Heh heh.

An interesting Sunday afternoon…

I’m glad to say that I spent the majority of this Sunday afternoon either interrogating the American University website or trying to find a separate place to host this here WordPress blog.  The first endeavor was pretty exciting.  The second, however, was a pain in the ass.

See, the reason why I was searching for someplace to host separately was because I couldn’t figure out for the life of me why this stupid thing wouldn’t show up in google, yahoo, or any other search engine.  I went through numerous processes: getting one of those “.tk” things, only to find that it’s a complete waste of time because it serves absolutely no purpose whatsoever, setting up a web hosting account with “100mb.com” (which might be useful to someone who has about five million hours to spare at the computer just to figure out how to use the thing… rendering it useless to me), and finally resorting to Blogger.

Don’t get me wrong – Blogger looks like an awesome tool.  I, however, am a dedicated WordPress junkie.  I wasn’t too hip on the thought of having a Blogger blog (I’d mainly use it just for stuff that I actually wanted people to read).  I figured “Hey, if Blogger is hosted by google, then maybe it’ll show up in the search results!”.  That’s how my mind works.

Anyway, I was going through the ropes of setting up a Blogger blog.  Naturally, the first thing I ever do when setting anything up is visit the “Settings” area.  I’m a very customizable person… I thrive on customizability.

Yes, I know it’s not a word.  Well, at least it wasn’t a word… mine now!

So there I was, nose-piloting through the settings… when I came upon a privacy option.  One that asked me whether or not I’d like the blog to show up on search engines.  Once again my mind thought “Hey, if Blogger has an option like this, then maybe WordPress has this option, too!”.  Yep, my very own thought version of the Theory of Relativity.  Heh heh.

Next thing I know I’m on the settings for this here blog, and who would’ve guessed… the option to have the blog show up in search results wasn’t ticked.  What the hell??  Thanks, WordPress… because you auto-ticked the “Disable search engine stuff thingies”, I’ve been talking to myself for pretty much EVER.

Moral of the story – I’m still here.  Problem solved.

And now we wait.  Heh heh.